Tuesday, 18 February 2014

Bye bye

Distance happens when we don't talk.
   
I try.
Words flow up and then get stuck somehow
pulling themselves back into my mouth
anchoring themselves on my teeth and tongue.
You look at me like I'm some kind of answer
but I can't be. I'm only a friend.
A human too.

Mistake are as easily my bread as they are yours. 




Friday, 14 February 2014

The Far Away Girl

Far away girl.
Her eyes hold pictures that lie not before her
stars dance in them as she creates
a world of her own.

Far away girl.
Life is magical.
Why must one chose between happiness and sunshine.
It comes from within
but so does loneliness.

Sometimes own little worlds aren't what
they are cracked up to be.

Thursday, 6 February 2014

Goodbyes

too many goodbyes

running into each other like tears mixing with rain
like black tracks down once rose filled cheeks
goodbye goodbye goodbye

too many goodbyes
coming too close to comfort
dripping their way over chins and onto vunerable skin at the nape of a neck.
goodbyes convulsing into someone else's shoulder.
into a pillow at 10 past 1 on a Tuesday morning.
into a shaking hand


but hellos too. yes those too.

Wednesday, 29 January 2014

Self Potrait 2.0

Eyes don't see like they used to
when things people places
where bright and shiny
new
adventure
magic

They have dimmed to the  point
where they can only see  reality
logic making paths
that fit like Tetris blocks

Trained to close themselves to hope
and evaluate what is before them

tell me
why is this better?

Sunday, 26 January 2014

Time

Where does the time go?
Following the path that we all need to follow
Skipping along to to to
The end
Where ever that is
Or whoever
Lost in the void of the meaningful meaningless
The meaning lost
And each of us searching for it
Searching
Running faster
Stretching our arms out further
Trying to catch up with our time
That each second diminishes before us
I don’t know where to go
Or how to catch it
Or how to make this all better
I don’t know anything
I feel as if I know less then I used to
Each day allowing more of my wisdom to escape
Making space for too much knowledge
Maybe I will one day learn again
The meaningless of the meaningful

And not the other way around.

Wednesday, 8 January 2014

Summer

We live in summer
Where boys jump from rocks believing they are men
And men fly from stones attempting to be boys.

Summer lives in us
It shines out of our eyes as youth and happiness
Lightens our hearts
Sings in our bones

But the light doesn't last forever
Our eyes dim, our hearts darken
Summer is great but

But winter is coming

Tuesday, 7 January 2014

Sounds

Tonight there are sounds
Softly caressing my ears into unconscious calmness
Dimming my eyes until they droop
The rain taps tenderly on metal
There’s music hiding behind it
Lyrics of songs I can almost make out
From down the hall the tv talks softly
And underneath it all
The soft breathing of the gentle creature resting on my chest
Tonight I should be learning poems, not writing them
Yet these sleepy sounds remind me
By encasing me in their careful embrace
That there is love

So much


Monday, 6 January 2014

For my mother






LikeALightInADarkRoom

altogether too magical
too necessary
too needed

yet I take you for granted.

Saturday, 4 January 2014

all of us are travelling down different roads
to reach the same destination

or all of us are travelling down the same road
to reach different destinations

either way it'd be great if i could hold someone's hand while i'm doing it.

Friday, 3 January 2014

Words

I created words
About you
For me they were you
All I had left of what I thought we had

But they were just black markings on a white blank page
On a computer screen
Grown out of a blinking cursor
And a heart in denial

Then I lost them
And it felt like I lost you
Or what was left of you
All over again

Or what I thought was you

We had it
For a second
In my mind

But seconds tick on
And so do you
And as soon as you were here you were gone

Blown about by your own gale
Always ready for something new

I guess just I wasn’t shiny enough
I’m sorry
I so wanted to be

Maybe next time.

Wednesday, 1 January 2014

Beginnings

Beginnings are everywhere
a new day starts
a new year
a new you

promises you make and never keep

This year i won't be a new me
- people don't change over night -
i won't suddenly become
cooler
wiser
prettier

But with a new beginning comes that hope - that maybe
over time
just casually
things will happen
and the next year along (when you take stock of what you've done)
you notice

your face has changed.

Beginnings are really the back ends of ending
and right now i'm too entranced in last year to think about the current one.

But there is always tomorrow.